is it us ??

Ok so i read a blog post about "ballers" and theyre wives or mates....
AND
the big thing was we as black women come with too much attitude and push them away...
just thinking about it and trying to figure out if this the real cause to why black men do not mind dating and (with the increase in numbers) marrying outside of the race.
now i have no issues with interracial dating. none at all
but the big question is
IS A BLACK WOMANS ATTITUDE THE REASON FOR IT ??


i dont know.

i mean its obvious. black women wouldnt but up with the things these men do unless your kobes wife or ja rule's wife. and kobes wife is other .... :/

in my opinion women of other races put up with a lot more than black women do ....
but thats just my opinion.

and to be honest i get turned off when a guy i want to pursue doesnt mind dating outside his race. i already have to compete with the black women but EVERY woman i cant

prince charming...

waiting on him
know i cant ride my own white horse for the rest of my life
maybe ive met him
know him
like him already !
:)

I am my own man

I hate when men say they can give me the world... Sir I'm going to school and working so I can give myself the world... I just need you to recognize that I'm worth it

Reruns?

Funny thing when the appetizer like gets washed down w love. Turns into hate and revenge is the entree! I hate eating leftovers :(

confessions

havent talked in so many days... in a few days it will be a week.
so not fair!!
i understand some things are wrong and weighing heavy on him, but really....?
definitely not fair to me ...
i know i dont always say the right things and im not strong with the comforting but i dont ask for much . just a simple... ::this sht fckn w me too much to talk:: would help my days go by smoother....

crazy huh?

how one person can have so much control over your feelings and emotions...
so much control!
i am the one that needs to be in control

swear i dont ask for much and he knows what it takes. knows women need attention and i have yet to receive anything
was worried about him for a while but he updated his status so i knw hes alive...
so...
when you going to check in on me?

feeling so incomplete.

looking for sht in other places when i know i dont need to but when it comes down to it nothing can replace the real thing. nothing !

miss him !

If it really exists

So I was thinking I was close to discovering love again for the second time... (nope!)
The first time I believed that I found it was because I was forcing it. No real connection there... just great sex cool chemistry, great laughs and a whole bunch of bad memories, emotions and time that i cant get back :(
but now there is someone new. something that seems unreal. too good to be true. yeah that kind of person. i don't know where he came from or why. interested to see if he has the answer to my question.
if at the end of this i will be happy. smiling.
not running down memory lane with the girls laughing at how stupid and how dumb he was..
idk maybe he'll be the one
and
he can answer if LOVE really exists?

i think its following me...

couldnt find a working pen...

but i just needed to write .... DEATH i s following me :?